october wish list

october wish list by cloinwonderland featuring a wool duffle coat

OOTD

Afternoon. Most teenagers on a Sunday would spend it lying in bed and doing mostly nothing. Not me. Nope, I'm up at 9.30 and getting ready to go into town for 11.45. I really liked what I was wearing and I thought that I'd just share what I was wearing with you:).

As you may be able to tell from my outfit, I have a slight obsession with topshop...

Sheer Blouse - New Look

Cropped Grey Jumper - Topshop

Jeans (Joni) - Topshop 

Frilly Socks - Topshop

T-Bar Navy Shoes - Topshop

Necklace - Gift

Baby-G Watch - Argos 

I'm going to be doing a blogpost very soon on the makeup that I am wearing here because it is my go-to make up at the moment.

Clo x

September Wish List

Evening All. As any 15 year old would spend their Friday, I spent my evening in bed, with a packet of wine gums, The Lion King and my laptop internet shopping. I have recently developed a slight shopping obsession, meaning that I have no money and am currently on a spending ban. I don't know about anybody else, but I have far more pleasure buying lots of things in one go, rather than buying a few bits at a time. This means that when I decide I have enough money I shall be able to go on a massive shopping trip and spend lots and lots of money and basically end up back where I am now.

I thought it would be fun for me to put together a collage on Polyvore and share with you some of the items I wish to purchase when I release myself from my spending ban. So here we go:





Topshop Joni Jeans - £36
Ok, so as much as I hate that so many girls wear these jeans they look so unbelievably comfortable. I am a big leggings lover, I live in them and although I own about 4/5 pairs of jeans I only wear about 1 pair and then again I barely ever wear them. I hope that when I do buy these it will mean that I start wearing them more.

H&M Knitted Cardigan - £25
I love wearing chunky cardigans, well I would if I owned one. I think so many times when I get dressed in a morning "A chunky cardigan would look great with this" but I never have one to wear and whenever I go to buy one I can't find one I like or they don't have my size. I love this one because its monochrome, meaning it will go with most things but the aztec print means that it isn't just a boring black cardigan.

Topshop Quilted Bomber Coat - £79
I've had a Superdry coat for 3 years and a Jack Wills Gillet  for 2 years now, and I love them (Jack Wills more than my Superdry but oh well) but I've found that I really want a different non-branded coat now that I'm that bit older and not as obsessed with the brand names. I love this coat and it looks so warm and I think that it would just be a lovely winter coat.

New Look Black  Cut Out Panel Buckle Ankle Boots - £25
Desperately want some ankle boot heels and these seem perfect because they're not too high as I'm already waaay too tall (a massive 5"8/5"9) and I hate my height but there we go.

New Look Teens Chestnut Lace Up Ankle Boots - £17.99
The picture of the boots in the picture aren't the exact ones that I want but the website I got the pictures off of didn't have the boots I want on there so I just used the ones closest to what I wanted. I am constantly wearing trainers so I'm hoping by getting these I will stop wearing them as much
haha.

Topshop Mix Finger and Midi Rings pack - £10
I'm loving the trend of midi rings at the moment and I think the ones in this pack are lovely as well as getting normal rings aswell. Although when you first look at them and think £10 is a lot for costume jewelry rings, you are getting 7 rings which works out as just over £1 each which is very good, especially for topshop jewelry which can be a bit steep for what it is.

Dot Body Lotion By Marc Jacobs - £27
I've had my eye on this for a while. Although I'm not overly keen on the actual Dot fragrance, I absolutely love the body lotion, which some people would probably find weird. I want something like this for times when I'm feeling especially low and I just feel like treating myself.

Daisy Eau So Fresh Eau De Toilette By arc Jacobs - £52
Like the previous product, I've been looking at this for a while. I also sadly cringe at the price of both of them. Admittedly, when I first saw this perfume, the bottle drew me in but I instantly fell in love with the sent of the perfume and have been desperate for it ever since.

Real Techniques Stippling Brush - £11.99
I own both the eye and face brush sets and the expert face brush and love (alsmost) every single brush. I've been told that the stippling brush is especially good for cream blush although people have used it as a foundation brush before. I always hold off buying this brush because I want to buy both my topshop cream blusher and stippling brush at the same time.

Topshop Cream Blush in Flush - £6
I really like the look of cream blushes but I have a horrible feeling that topshop have discontinued many of their cream blushes, however I think that this shade is absolutely gorgeous and I would've happily picked this colour out from a collection.

Benefit They're Real Mascara - £19.50
A while back I brought the Elle magazine and it had a travel size of this mascara in. I instantly fell in love. It was genuinely such an amazing mascara and I would happily pay the full £19.50(!) for it. As usual I find it ridiculous how much make up costs nowadays but I can see why people keep going back for this mascara.

MAC Russian Red Lipstick - £15
I very nearly brought this lipstick for an amazing £11.50 I think it was when I was in duty free earlier on in the year. I came back to realise that MAC had yet again put up their prices for a lipstick. I mean come on MAC, £15 for a lipstick is a little silly. I only own two high end make up products (Urban Decay Naked 2 palette and the travel size Urban Decay Primer Potion) and I am desperate to try out MAC and I love red lipstick so I know I would get a lot of wear out of this product.

MAC Studio Fix Fluid - £21.50
I am always trying to find a good full coverage, matte finish foundation and this seems like a perfect solution. I hope that for the price it will live up to my expectations (as I'm sure it will) and I cannot wait to finally be able to try this.


So that's my September wish list.

Clo x

Week Away With the Scouts

I was a scout for 4 years and I loved it so unbelievably much. It all meant so much to me and it made me the person I am today. So many of the happy memories that I have involve scouts. I've learnt so many valuable life skills and all of the leaders (still call them that even though I'm one now haha) are like family. When I left last October I knew that as soon as my six months away were up I was going back to help and be a young leader. 

This summer the head scout leader, Chris, did the one camp he's always wanted to do; go to the New Forest and stay overnight on Brownsea Island (the place where scouting started!). I'd been to the New Forest many times throughout my childhood, especially when we were going down to the Isle of Wight. Going there with scouts was such a fun and different experience and I absolutely loved it. Sometimes you find that going somewhere you've been so many times with your family is a completely different experience to going there with friends and other people. Me and Zak (another young leader) were the youngest ones there from Saturday until Tuesday and although it was fine it was so nice to have Matt and Em join us (and there was another female leader!) when they got there on Tuesday. 

The campsite we were staying on was so so so pretty and the new forest looked gorgeous as always. I was so happy when we finally got there after a 6 hour journey (traffic was awful)! We went Saturday to Saturday and when we got down there on the first Saturday we spent the day just setting up and getting settled into the campsite. On the Sunday we all did activities on site. Somehow all the leaders ended up being made to participate in one of the activities. We had to climb up this pole that has a small platform on the top and the grab each others wrists and lean back without falling off. It was so funny but so hard. When we were all up there we were just holding onto each other for dear life. 

 Top photo - Me, Garion, Zak and Daniel up on the top of the platform.

 Bottom photo - When we all lost our balance and fell off, oops!

On the Monday Chris decided to take us on a walk. He told us that it would be about a 3 hour round trip (we were having a stop in a little town) and that there was a chance of light showers. The liar. It was about 2/3 hours each was and there was a monsoon rain storm on the way back. We were not happy! Even our raincoats didn't keep us dry, I think the phrase "drowned rats" was pretty fitting to be honest. On the upside there was a amazing sweet shop in the town! On Tuesday we all went mountain biking which was lots of fun but, oh my, the bike seat were so uncomfortable! My bum was sore for days after. We stopped in Brokenhurst that day which made me so, so happy as it is where we always stayed when we were in the New Forest. 

On Wednesday we were off to Brownsea Island, eek! We traveled down to Poole on the train and then whilst all the little scoutlings and the majority of the leaders went to the island, me, Zak, Dave and Mick stayed to get the food, yum yum. The island was full of wildlife like peacocks and deers. We got so incredibly close to a deer and it was probably something I'll never be able to do again. People on Brownsea used to make pots and all the ones that weren't any use just got thrown onto the beach. During the evening we all started skimming pieces of broken pot across the sea. 

Top Photo - A deer that we got so incredibly close to. 

Bottom Photo - One of the many peacocks that we got to see, we even started feeding them! (sorry about the quality of the photos as they were taken on an iPod)

Top Photo - The amazing view from the beach with all the pots on at night.

 Bottom Photo - When we were all skimming pot across the sea. I'm sure Bruce (the one bending over) will really appreciate this photo of his beautiful bottom haha. 

There's a stone that explains what happened at the "experimental scout camp" and we all had our photo taken with that. When some people visited the island they put a sign on a pole that pointed in the direction that they came from. I really wish that we'd known about it so that we could put a sign on their so that we could've put our mark there. We left Brownsea on Thursday morning and I actually felt quite sad leaving, I'd had a really nice 24 hours on the island. We spent the day in pool, and as the healthy leaders we are; me, Em, Matt and Zak took a trip to McDonalds and Matt had six cheese burgers, SIX. And he ate them all. Lucky thing. 

Top Photo - Me looking at the stone; just thought I'd be quick to point out that I am not posing for this photo and I did not know that this photo was being taken. 

Middle Photo - The sign posts of different groups that have visited the island.

 Bottom Photo - Most of the leaders by the stone that reads "This Stone commemorates the experimental camp of 20 boys held of this site in August 1907 by Robert Baden-Powell, later Lord Baden-Powell of Gilwell. Founder of the Scout and Guide movements." Leader L - R: Me (Chloe), Bruce, Em, Garion, Joh (the gnome), Zak, Mick and Matt.

On the last day we decided to take a trip down to Brighton beach to relax and go for a swim - although the sea was absolutely freezing! It was an overall great day and it was a lovely way to spend our last day together. Everyone just seemed to have such an amazing time and it all reminded me just how much of a family we all are. At the end of the day (we're another day older. ok no Les Mis quotes) the leaders were chasing the scouts around playing with a rugby ball, and it kind of just looked like we were all family having a day at the beach. 

Top Photo - Garion throwing the rugby ball to someone.

Middle Photo - Dave chasing after my brother to get the rugby ball off of him, no he did not get it haha.

Bottom Photo - GROUP PHOTO!:D L - R: Chris, Joe, Kelsey, Kieran, Joesph, Abby, MOlly, Lewis, Chloe, Kayleigh, Tiffany, Myra, Bruce, Matt, Mick, Jed, Liam, Zak, Daniel, Dave, Garion, Em,  John, Matt, Me.

Saturday wasn't exciting, we packed up and then sat eating frosties and coco pops, haha. It was a bit emotional leaving as it always is because you just remember what an amazing time you've had and just end up wishing that you could do it all over again. 

Photo - Another group photo:)

Overall it was such an amazing week, one that I would happily do again. 

Clo x

Love

Always thought this blog would be about my life, events. But I guess this could count too? Love. It's such a powerful word, but such a strong emotion too. But what is it really like? So many music artists use it as a base for songs, I think 99% are about love now-a-days. All the movies make it seem that there's always a happy ending, but in reality, there's no such thing as a 'Happy Ever After'. Everyone watches the Disney movies when you're young, and we all grow up hoping to be our favorite Disney princess; whether it's Belle, or Cinderella, or Jasmine, or even Ariel. We're all set up to think that one day you'll find your soul-mate, your Prince Charming. But love is so much more than the person you marry. It's about family - your parents who raise you, your siblings because even though you always argue you still love them all the same, your grandparents who spoil you rotten but you'd still think the same of them even if they didn't. It's about your friends - the people you grow up with and go through school with you, the people who even though you don't see much anymore you know they'll always be there for you, the people who have been through thick and thin with you. It could even be about what job you want to do when you grow up, finding you're passionate about, even a hobby. Love is so much more than the person you'll marry.

Every different religion and country has their own views about love too. Some think that you should have an arranged marriage, some think that you shouldn't have sex before you're married. Everyone has a different view on it. You will have a different view on it to your friends, your parents and furthermore your grandparents. Everyone is ready for a serious relationship at different times and you shouldn't feel pressured just because your friends are in relationships or that your parents think your getting to an age in your life where you should be having relationships. Love isn't about that. It's about finding someone that you  truly care about and keeping hold of it. After all, if you're anywhere near my age - you're still young! Go enjoy yourself.

Lots of people also think that men should be the one to spoil the woman all the time, kiss them on the cheek, make the first move. But I don't agree. Men like the care and attention just as much. We live in the 21st Century for goodness sake, women are just as powerful as men and as a friend once said to me "You're a strong independent woman, you don't have to shave your legs if you don't want to". I mean, ok, maybe we weren't on the same subject (as it happens I was complaining about the task of having to shave my legs constantly, but I'm sure you'll all agree that it's such a pain) but it's kind of getting to the same point, we're all strong independent women, we don't need to constantly have men looking after us anymore, we're just as capable of caring for them as they are of us, if that even makes any sense at all. Sending flowers is such a cute, romantic gesture, but who does that anymore? The only people who receive flowers anymore are your grandparents, and maybe even your mum on mother's day if she's lucky.

No relationship is ever going to be the same as another. Everyone is their own individual person, and each relationship is unique. Treasure it. Because in a blink of an eye everything could change, and that relationship you had could fall apart. Being in high school is such a stressful time, you don't need to have the extra of having a relationship on top of that, sure it's nice if you can but you after all your GCSEs are what dictate the rest of your life, concentrate on that and not whether you have a boyfriend or not.

I don't really know why I'm bringing this up but oh well I am. Cheating. It's a foul, horrible and bitchy thing to do. I'd love to be able to say that I've never been cheated on, but then I'd be lying. I'm not going to sit here and tell you that it's easy, or that it won't really affect you because it isn't and it does, especially if you love them. It's the hardest and most heartbreaking thing ever. You feel like you're second best, that you're not good enough. You feel so unbelievably low and you just wanna scream and shout and cry and punch someone and you're so angry and upset and frustrated all at the same time. Confusing I know, but if you've ever been through it you'll know what I'm talking about. I'd also love to say that I finished it and moved on, but I didn't. My story is complicated and they were drunk and they can't even remember it. It meant nothing to them, that's why I'm still with them. But if they tell you that it may of meant something, they're not worth it. Don't stand for second best. Ever. Maybe I'm being hypocritical but that's your opinion.

What is my ideal relationship you may ask at the end of all this?
 I want someone who is my best friend as well as my boyfriend. Someone who will let me spoil them rotten as well as spoiling me. I can turn to them no matter what. We act like complete loonies together, but it's ok because we're loonies together. Someone who'll do dorky things with me and not care about what other people think. They'll call me beautiful all the time and wake me up with "Good morning beautiful" texts and send me to sleep with "Goodnight gorgeous, sleep tight, I love you" texts. I want someone who's willing to wait until I'm ready to have sex. Someone who will fall asleep with me in their arms just cuddling. Someone who will let me borrow their clothes and then "accidentally" forget to give them back. I want kisses on my forehead, temple and cheek. They'll creep up on me and hug me from behind when they first see me. Tickle me until I'm crying with laughter just to see me smile. I want someone who will chase after me and grand me and just hold me when I storm off because I'm being a mardy bitch. Hold my hand and give me Haribo rings and ask me to marry them to make me laugh. I want someone who I can grow old with and become one of those cute old couples that people make cute remarks over because we're walking around places like central park and Paris holding hands. I want someone who I can have a family with. I want someone who I can sit and watch Disney movies with and eat junk food all day with. Who I can have food fights with. Someone who is always joking and trying to make me smile, but knows when to be serious. But most of all, I want someone who will love me for who I am.

I know that's a lot to want, and in reality it will never happen. But a girl can dream. I know this post has so much writing and if you've read this far I'm very grateful. This is probably the words worst blog because it has no photos (yet) but it will soon and thank you for reading this far (if you have).

Clo x

Derby Theatre Youth Theatre - Ruckus In The Garden

I think my most favorite place on earth to be is probably on stage. Last summer I started going to Derby Theatre to help the Learning Director at the theatre get together some ideas to put together a Youth Theatre. Me, Mia, Ella and Simon then went on to help interview some of the possible directors for a show that the youth theatre would produce.

These are the photos of when we were interviewing the directors. It seems so long ago! I don't normally like photos of me but I actually don't mind these ones, probably because I didn't actually realise they were being taken but there we go.

We then went on to produce a show called Ruckus In The Garden. The show was about two rival schools who went on a school trip to the same garden one year, but the garden as magical. Two girls from either school had their bodies swapped by cupids. The girls fall in love with a boy from their own school, but the boys think they are from the other school. Stanley, one of the boys, is a pacifist and doesn't believe in violence; so when a ruckus is due to happen he is determined to end all of the fighting by performing the 'Love, Peace and Harmony action'. The production week was so much fun, despite the 8/9 hour rehearsal periods.

 Top photo - The whole (or most) of the cast in rehearsals. Bottom Photo - Me in rehearsals, still can't decide whether I look like I'm about to burst into tears, or burst into laughter but it was the second one.

I've met some amazing friends through the Youth Theatre, and my boyfriend. I can honestly say it's changed me, and for the better. If you'd have told me this time last year that I would be in a Youth Theatre I would've probably have laughed at you - I'm a dancer,  not an actor. But I guess that I've also found that I enjoy acting too. It's one of the things that if you gave me the chance to do it again, I would, I really would. I can't really believe I've been involved with all of this for nearly a year now, I've known Mia and Ella nearly a year, and they are honestly two of the nicest people ever and I'm so proud to be able to call them my friends. I also met people later on when we started to do the production, like Amy, Chloe, Jess, Simon, Amar and Isaak. Even Jack, whose like a big brother to me:'). Yeah I met a few people who I really don't like, but that's just going to happen, I don't know many people who get along with absolutely everybody. 

Top Photo - Me and the rest of my dressing room L-R Ella, Me, Chloe, Ella, Louise. Got along with most of these girls and they are all just lovely. Bottom Photo - Mainly Amar and Alessi, but there's also others on there such a Bryony, Holly, Chloe and Jess; once again most of the girls on here were lovely, but there's always the odd exception eh?;). And Amar, well Amar's my boy so what can I really say? He's an absolute idiot, but I love him:') 

 Top Photo - Awh it's Amy! Hate that I never get to see her much because she's in the younger group this term:( Bottom Photo - On the left is Isaak and the right is Barney. Isaak is amazing, Amar's best mate and he's such a nice lad.

Top Photo - Jack and Alice. Jack is so lovely, he's such a gentleman and he's like a big brother to me! Bottom Photo - Simon! He's just amazing, and an excellent actor, he was a rabbit like the one in 'Alice in Wonderland' and he did an amazing job.

 

Awh more photos from our dressing room! Top Photo - Me and one of my favorite girls Chloe, such a babe she is;) Bottom Photo - Omg, Ella, she's such a funny person and sort of a mother/big sister to us all.

Awh it's Mia! Didn't have a photo that was mainly her to put in so I used this because she just looks so pretty:')

It was such an amazing production week and the last curtain call was such an emotional time:') I think I can honestly say that even through all the bitching, tears and early mornings everyone honestly had such an amazing time and we were all just one big family! The directors were lovely and they even stood having a gossip with us about boys after the final performance on the Saturday. Gonna leave you now with a very emotional photo of us all doing the curtain call, you get such a buzz and adrenaline rush from it haha! Chloe x